I read a blog today that was truly a blessing. With my new job, I hardly have time to sit down, let alone read online like I used to (that was definitely a perk at my last job!!). But today, for whatever reason, I was given time to read a couple of blogs. One really encouraged me to the core – it was perfect timing and it will be added to my journal (and probably to my “wall of faith” that I have on the wall in front of my desk. This is where I do my daily devotions and I purposely put up quotes, scriptures and prayers so that I cannot help but be reminded of God’s Truth and Faithfulness – For the Word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does ~ Ps. 33:4). Yeah, this will probably go right up there!
|How I Almost Quit
(Author: John Piper)
Are you so discouraged you don’t know what to do next? I want to help you get through this. Maybe this will help.
The following quote is from my journal dated November 6, 1986. I had been at Bethlehem 6 years. If you have ever felt like this, remember this is 24 years ago and I am still here.
The point is: Beware of giving up too soon. Our emotions are not reliable guides.
I definitely didn’t know about John Piper 24 years ago, but I first heard him preach at a Passion One Day conference 10 years ago and his message is still one that rings so deeply in my heart–it’s changed the way I see my time here on earth (definitely listen to the message!). Naively, I never would have thought John Piper would have such a journal entry — I know, know. Like I said, naive! I feel like my journals are filled with similar passages. They are also filled with incredible things too: answered prayer, promises, lessons from the Word and some drawings that just randomly come from the heart. Other than that, my pages are and have definitley been filled with many real moments like this one — mine can be a bit more raw…yikes!
No, I am not the Pastor of a church or embarking on something like what Bethlehem was on the cusp of…but maybe I am. Maybe you are. The enormity isn’t what matters. I just absolutely appreciate the vulnerability and weakness John shared with us publically that we might be mutually encouraged. That’s how I too often feel – weak and unsure. And somehow all these similar journal entries/petitions that are written in our lack of understanding somehow, in God’s economy, propel us forward, even when we don’t see it or sense it. Honestly, I had a heart to heart with the Lord yesterday and one of my greatest fears is that in a year from now my life wouldn’t look any different. I’m not sure what my vision is, other than to know Christ. That’s a tremendous start and a beautiful journey! But it’s hard to see the specificity of a vision and live it out in the midst of uncertainty. So, I am grateful for this honest and vulnerable entry by John Piper. God obviously came through. He will for me and I trust He will for you too, even when clarity seems the object of the faith lesson. We walk by blur and not by 20/20 vision! At least most times I feel like that’s the case. With all sincerity, I pray God blesses you and encourages you to keep believing in who He is – especially in the blurred, unseen!